So I went to this party tonight for my friend Mickel’s mother. While there I ended up playing my guitar outside and someone heard me playing. He then walked over to me and introduced himself. His name is Darien and he loved what he was hearing. He’s a Music Tech teacher over at Bethune Cookman University. He also runs a recording studio and a record label. Well he wants me to get into the studio with him to start recording my songs. He’s also going to help me get everything out to the public. This day has been amazing. I was in the right place at the right time. I’m going to be giving him a call and setting up everything on either Monday or Tuesday. Maybe my EP will be out by the end of this year. My fingers are crossed. I’m amazed someone actually liked me enough to just sit, listen and then approach me with an opprotunity.
So the wind that blows across your room Carried cheap perfume onto your dresser It rained for jewelry and for credit cards Two tickets to a film I don't remember One day you'll kiss your rabbits nose, pick up the phone To find I've been turned over And you'll grab that piece of gold Only to find that the smell has taken over Now all the things you had, they aren't the same... As what you hold I'm standing in a room, It's filled with older folks pleading "baby listen" And I scream as loud as anyone, But when asked to make a point I tend to whisper Now highways turn to tidal waves They're asking me to export all of your insecurities But that wind that blows across your room It's gonna set the sails, and send me back to you Sometimes, when sailors are sailing They think twice, about where they're anchoring And I think, I could make better use of my time on land I'll drink less 'cause lord knows I could use a warm kiss Instead of a cold goodbye I'm writing the folks back home to tell them "Hey I'm doing alright" It's a shame what your father did to your brothers head He smashed it with a telephone And your mother got scared and locked the door You were only four, but lord you remember it So now you're scared of love I'm here to tell you loves not some fucking blood on the receiver Love is speaking in code It's an inside joke Love is coming home Sometimes, when sailors are sailing They think twice, about where they're anchoring And I think, I could make better use of my time on land I'll drink less 'cause lord knows I could use a warm kiss Instead of a cold goodbye I'm writing the folks back home to tell them "Hey I'm doing alright" Yeah I'm doing just fine And if she seems as lonely as me..... Let her sink. Let her sink. Let her
I found a letter in the mailbox today
And I said, “thank you for your thoughts, but I’m done.”
I said that I would never build this up right here
And he said, “that’s why I can’t work with you son.”
But I can’t let this go I’m on my way
You can only hold my diamond ring
But I’ll go crawling back to the city I love
Cause it’s already taken everything
I’m going to Coney Island have myself a dog
And reminisce why I still hate it here
It’s all these people with their cotton candy eyes
It’s so sweet, now put the train in gear
But I can’t let this go I’m on my way
You can only hold my diamond ring
But I’ll go crawling back to the city I love
Cause it’s already taken everything
The ground is swallowing my options full release
And if it rains they might just disappear
I counted 27 birds up there today
I’m thinking that’s why I still love it here
I’m thinking that’s why I still love it here
But I can’t let this go I’m on my way
You can only hold my diamond ring
But I’ll go crawling back to the city I love
Cause it’s already taken everything
Cause it’s already taken everything
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First thing first. Samantha called me this morning and told me she was sorry for the decision she was forcing me to make last night. She told me she has nothing wrong with me doing my music and we can make it work if I do go on tour. So that’s cool. I don’t have to give up a dream or anything. I don’t want to go through my life regretting that I didn’t go on tour.
Today I went down to North Turn to visit my former co-workers/friends. I found out I got out of there just in time. They’re starting lay off people there. Fuck that place. Olive Garden was the perfect place for me to go to then. After that I left and I went to Allstate to pay insurance and I found out it’s not due yet. Cool. Saves me $140.
After running around I went home and did nothing. I sat there and IMed a few people over at Island Records, and then I got an IM from my buddy Boomer. We made plans yesterday to get together today and play some music together. We got together and we started playing. We have ideas down and where we want to go with things, but now we’re wanting to bring others into this journey we’re mapping out right now. We’re looking for a bassist and a drummer now. Any takers? We also decided that we’re going to go by the name Throw It In The River. Yeah. It’s going to be awesome.
After Boomer and I were done hanging out, I came home and took a shower and then I was off to see Samantha. I saw her for a little bit. Brought her a coffee, a green tea, and an almond joy for tomorrow. She appreciated it (I think. She better have!). We said goodnight to each other and now I am here at my house doing nothing, but blogging on this here site. It’s amazing how much I can type on here. I should just write a book about my life using WordPress. That’s an interesting concept. Will it happen? Read later entries to find out. Haha!
Here is my play list for today:
- Valencia – We All Need A Reason To Believe
(Everyone needs to listen to this album! It’s in stores now.) - The Apathy Eulogy – Journey: The Road Is Made Of More Than Asphalt
(Hands down one of my favorite unsigned bands. I’m also happy to call them friends.) - Cary Brothers – Who You Are
(This album is amazing and really hits home for me. Stand out tracks include “Jealousy”, “Who You Are”, “The Glass Parade”, “Honestly”, “Blue Eyes”) - The Morning Light – The Sounds of Love EP
(My favorite new discovery in music. Great vocals. Great hooks. Great lyrics and song structure. I cannot wait for their full length album.) - Say Anything – In Defense of The Genre
(Say Anything is my favorite band. You already knew that though, unless you were living under a rock. I really enjoy this album. Max Bemis sings about my life and the situations I go through. It’s nice to have a personal soundtrack.)
My predictions for tomorrow’s (technically today) play list:
- The Reign of Kindo – Rhythm, Chord & Melody
- Jack’s Mannequin – The Glass Passenger
- Anberlin – New Surrender
- The Format – Dog Problems
- Death Cab For Cutie – Narrow Stairs
- Anthony Green - Avalon
Now I am off to bed. Have a goodnight and a pleasant tomorrow. I need to wake up and chill with Boomer.
So Samantha (my long time on again off again girlfriend) just said something to me on the phone. She said, “Your music, or me.” Anyone else find this fucked up? I’m shocked and disgusted by that statement/question. Now it’s all about the right choice. What should I do?
Fall Out Boy will be releasing a new album titled, Folie a Deux, on November 4th (election day).
Nice.
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So the title says it all. I can’t get to sleep. My house is way too hot. There is something called Air Conditioning, but apparently my parents rather live like we don’t have that luxury. Oh well, I’ll have my own place soon enough, and since this is Florida, I’m keeping it COLD.
Right now I’m spending my night watching TV. I think I’m starting to get into that show Rescue Me that’s on FX. So far I really like it. I need to see it from season one though. I’m also watching some stand up comedy. I’ll tell you what. I’m so sick of Ron White and everyone else from that Blue Collar shit. It’s really annoying and I don’t find any of the jokes funny. I’m done with that rant. Right now I’m trying to find some bed time music. I want something soothing. I might put The Apathy Eulogy on. We’ll see though. I might be putting in Death Cab For Cutie again or I might even put in the new Jack’s Mannequin album. We’ll see though. Jack’s Mannequin has some rocking songs on it, so that’s not the best choice for sleeping.
A lot of things are crossing my mind tonight and I don’t know where to start to even stop thinking. It sucks. I have some much planned for my life, but yet I’m stuck. I really need help. Send me an angel.
“I’m made of more than your direction
your definition of perfection is different than mine
I’m made of more than you”
-The Apathy Eulogy
“Saturation”
Spent the evening listening to the new Anberlin album. This album is in my top 5 for albums of the year. It’s seriously that good. I love it very much. Some of the songs hit home, some don’t. That’s how it is with every album though (unless it’s Say Anything, then every album hits home).
Tonight Mickel and I hung out. We just went to Cold Stone and got some ice cream and talked a little bit. It was nice. He and I discussed life and everything that’s been going on with ourselves. He told me his women problems, and I told him mine. I told him how I need a new town (which is a broken record cause every time I tell him that). He also needs a new town. He’s moving to L.A. soon to go to school, and I want to go. L.A. is just way too expensive for my budget right now. We’ll see what happens in the coming months though.
Well I’m off to shower. I’m very disgusting right now.
“What disasters may come
Whatever it may be
At the end of the age
It will land you and me
What tragedy may bring
Whatever may fall
At the end of the world
You’ll still belong”
-Anberlin
“Misearbile Visu (Ex Malo Bonum)”
Some days I don’t feel like waking up. Some days I feel like I’m put through so much that it’s just not worth waking up for. I really need a new town. I need something different.
“Either write something worth reading about, or do something worth writing about.”
- Ben Franklin
When I sit back and look at my life
I see how everything has changed
I’ve got all of these new aspirations
and nothing is constant, nothing’s the same
so I walk wherever my heart leads me
there’s no crossroads to interfere
no second guessing the steps that I take
because it’s all smooth sailing from here
and I remember wanting to leave
because this town has nothing to offer me
I remember wanting to leave
because of this town
now I’m holding my breath
because there is nothing left
but dreams I’ve had
and no muse to take in
I’m just searching for where I belong
so I keep on chasing the sun
As I sit here and take another drag
from the habit I swore myself I’d quit
I take a good look at all of my days
and ponder about this life that I’m in
where the sky doesn’t seem to shine like it should
at night when the stars all show their face
is there really nothing left here for me
there was nothing from the start, it was the same
and I remember wanting to leave
because this town has nothing to offer me
I remember wanting to leave
because of this town
now I’m holding my breath
because there is nothing left
but dreams I’ve had
and no muse to take in
I’m just searching for where I belong
so I keep on chasing the sun
“keep on dreaming”
they all use to say
“you’re running out of time
you’ll regret it someday”
but those are words spoken by hopeless
destroyed by fear and broken promises
and I won’t give up like they want me to
because this is something they were never able to do
now I’m holding my breath
because there is nothing left
but dreams I’ve had
and no muse to take in
I’m just searching for where I belong
so I keep on chasing the sun
I’m holding my breath
because there is nothing left
but dreams I’ve had
and no muse to take in
I’m just searching for where I belong
so I keep on chasing the sun
When I sit back and look at my life
I see how everything has changed
